My gaze is fixed ahead
The cage that held me for so long
At last the door begins to open
And yet I stare
I cannot move
My eyes burn as tears stream down
Tremors raze me from within
A cry of pain so loud it deafens
But there is silence, stillness
I do not move
I feel nothing
Not a lack of feeling
But a physical absence
A tangible void
I feel it
It is there
Nothing is there
Stabbed without a blade
Shot without a gun
I have not been pierced
Yet a piece of me is missing
Gone
My soul is gone
I could reach inside and touch it
The emptiness is there
I feel, too real
The object
The thing inside me
I feel nothing
My eyes stay locked ahead
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I can no longer hide
What I am inside
I am what I am
And what I am now is out
Out in the light
Where I don't want to be
But it's harder for me
To stay locked away
In the closet, the coffin
The dark of my soul
It's eating me whole
So I must let it out
Yes I'm a creature
From legends of old
My blood runneth cold
My fangs sharp as knives
Yes I'm a lover
Of women like me
Our soft supple forms
Move my dead heart to beat
Her hands on my hips
Her blood on my lips
Her breath on my neck
Sweet ecstasy
As we lay down together
In sapphic embrace
My lips downward trace
Her heavenly form
Our bodies entwined
Our hearts beat in sync
I hardly can think
Warrior
That's a good word for me
Fighting for those I care about
But what do I do
When those I care about
Are killing me?
Flower
That's a good word for me
An object of beauty
In a world of darkness
But I'm just an object
And these petals are growing heavy
Angel
That's a good word for me
A guardian
A savior
A sacrificial pawn
My brilliant wings
Long since broken
Long since rotted away
So why do I keep flying?
Why should I keep flying?
Please tell me
Myself for everyone
But no one for me
Where is my flower?
My warrior?
My angel?
Why should I keep fighting?
Toy
That's a good word for me
A thing for bringing happiness
But discarded when b
Eternity
An obsession
A desire
A curse
An unwilting flower
Atop a lonely mountain
Within an isolated forest
Eternally alone
Blood red petals
Brilliant in the light
A vision under the moon
Beauty undisturbed by time
The forest dark and unforgiving
The mountain hard and cold
A harsh exterior
Imprisoning a forever bloom
Few have sufferred the forest's depth
None endure the mountain's rise
Time goes by
Yet still none come
The flower waits undying
Its petals ache
It longs for touch
It longs for warmth
Eternally alone
The flower dances with the wind
Its petals waltzing with the breeze
But the wind will not stay
And the f
Why?
Why did they take her from me?
Why did they take her heart away?
We were in love.
That's all that should have mattered.
That's all they should have seen.
Why couldn't they see?
Why did they hate her?
Was it just for loving me?
Is she gone because of me?
She was so beautiful,
An angel in my arms.
They couldn't understand.
She was only different in their eyes.
She was different.
That's all they cared about.
They abused her,
Hurt her,
All for loving me.
We were in love.
That was all I needed.
She had my shoulder to cry on,
My breast to lay on.
I thought that was enough for her.
Why wouldn't she talk to me?
Why could