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Literature
Good Words
Warrior
That's a good word for me
Fighting for those I care about
But what do I do
When those I care about
Are killing me?
Flower
That's a good word for me
An object of beauty
In a world of darkness
But I'm just an object
And these petals are growing heavy
Angel
That's a good word for me
A guardian
A savior
A sacrificial pawn
My brilliant wings
Long since broken
Long since rotted away
So why do I keep flying?
Why should I keep flying?
Please tell me
Myself for everyone
But no one for me
Where is my flower?
My warrior?
My angel?
Why should I keep fighting?
Toy
That's a good word for me
A thing for bringing happiness
But discarded when broken
No one cares how the toy feels
Hollow
That's a good word for me
My armor sturdy and unbroken
But it's just a shell
With ashes inside
How do I scream
without a voice of my own?
How do I cry
With no tears left in my heart?
How do I live
When my soul would shatter
But for the shell that surrounds it?
Please tell me
My life is not for me
I belong to eve
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A Mother's Love (Spoilers) by AmaraKaiba A Mother's Love (Spoilers) :iconamarakaiba:AmaraKaiba 32 26
Literature
Amaranth
Eternity
An obsession
A desire
A curse
An unwilting flower
Atop a lonely mountain
Within an isolated forest
Eternally alone
Blood red petals
Brilliant in the light
A vision under the moon
Beauty undisturbed by time
The forest dark and unforgiving
The mountain hard and cold
A harsh exterior
Imprisoning a forever bloom
Few have sufferred the forest's depth
None endure the mountain's rise
Time goes by
Yet still none come
The flower waits undying
Its petals ache
It longs for touch
It longs for warmth
Eternally alone
The flower dances with the wind
Its petals waltzing with the breeze
But the wind will not stay
And the flower cannot go
The flower greets the storm with cheer
The petals embrace the drops of rain
The sensuous touch of cool water
But the storm will never last
Day into night
Night into day
Timeless beauty longing for an end
Within the forest
Atop the mountain
A cruel eternity
I am the flower
Eternally alone
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The Twilight Zone by AmaraKaiba The Twilight Zone :iconamarakaiba:AmaraKaiba 55 20 Video Game Meme by AmaraKaiba Video Game Meme :iconamarakaiba:AmaraKaiba 247 73 Sniper-Kitty by AmaraKaiba Sniper-Kitty :iconamarakaiba:AmaraKaiba 140 21
Literature
We Were In Love
Why?
Why did they take her from me?
Why did they take her heart away?
We were in love.
That's all that should have mattered.
That's all they should have seen.
Why couldn't they see?
Why did they hate her?
Was it just for loving me?
Is she gone because of me?
She was so beautiful,
An angel in my arms.
They couldn't understand.
She was only different in their eyes.
She was different.
That's all they cared about.
They abused her,
Hurt her,
All for loving me.
We were in love.
That was all I needed.
She had my shoulder to cry on,
My breast to lay on.
I thought that was enough for her.
Why wouldn't she talk to me?
Why couldn't she tell me?
We were in love.
They punished her for loving me.
Their words cut her deep.
But she wouldn't tell me.
She held me in her arms.
Kept me warm at night.
I tried to do the same for her.
She'd curl up in my embrace,
Safe from their disdain.
For a time.
They hurt her too deep.
She closed her heart from the world,
From me.
I couldn't reach her anymore.
And now sh
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Anime by AmaraKaiba Anime :iconamarakaiba:AmaraKaiba 5,758 2,746 Yaoi by AmaraKaiba Yaoi :iconamarakaiba:AmaraKaiba 155 61 Physics by AmaraKaiba Physics :iconamarakaiba:AmaraKaiba 116 29 The Oh Shit Moment by AmaraKaiba The Oh Shit Moment :iconamarakaiba:AmaraKaiba 390 99 Priscilla by AmaraKaiba Priscilla :iconamarakaiba:AmaraKaiba 55 27 Flash Games by AmaraKaiba Flash Games :iconamarakaiba:AmaraKaiba 43 9
Literature
Goodbye
The face I wear is empty
Indifferent
Dead
I cannot bring myself to smile
The mask I wear is blank
Emotionless
Cold
It hides the pain inside
I hold it all back
Hide it from the world
My pain
My pain is not for others
I must be strong for those around
I must be strong
Why must I be strong?
Why couldn't you be my strength?
Why couldn't you stay?
Why can't I cry on your shoulders
The way others now cry on mine?
The face I wear is not but fake
Hiding tears that should be falling
Hiding pain I can't erase
You brought more joy than life itself
And jealous life took back its gift
As I hide the pain inside
I wonder if you're happy
Are you happy where you are?
Goodbye
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Literature
What Vampires Fear
The night rushes through me
I run through a field
My heart racing
My blood boiling
I am the night
I glance at the stars
Watchful eyes in a veil of darkness
I stop to admire them
So beautiful
Moonlight shines across my face
I close my eyes
And let my body fall to grass
I take a breath
The night air flows into my lungs
Coursing through my body
As the cool grass calms my heated skin
Complete peace
The bushes rustle
I roll my head towards the sound
The bush is still
As still as me
For what have I to fear?
I am fear
My gaze returns to the moonlit sky
And my eyes close once again
Footsteps sound as the animal leaves
Too loud to be small
A dog?
A wolf?
It doesn't matter
I am the hunter
The predator
Everything else is merely prey
Dawn is coming
My body longs for night to last
But knows the sun must always rise
I stand
And give the night a farewell kiss
Another day
I'm with my friends
Safe inside from sunlight's touch
From that which causes only pain
Someone walks in
I turn to look and see a ma
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Literature
Don't Look Through Me
People think I'm happy.
Laughter fills my throat,
But tears fill my soul.
People think I'm happy,
Because they don't think about me at all.
They don't see me,
What I am,
What I'm capable of.
I walk down a hallway,
A thousand faces all around.
They see a shape,
Another face in the crowd.
I walk down a hallway,
A thousand eyes on either side,
Not one of them open.
I'm laughing on the outside,
But my heart is bleeding.
My soul is crying.
No one sees me.
They just see a shadow moving by.
But all it takes is one.
One person,
One pair of eyes,
One soul,
To see me,
And I'm complete.
I'll be at peace.
Don't look through me.
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Ok, I have to say that I have just about had it with Overwatch's competitive mode. I love Overwatch, and have been pretty obsessed with it since it came out, but as a Mercy mainer (is that even a word?), I'm starting to get very frustrated with it. Anyone who favors Mercy knows that we have to deal with our fair share of aggravation, from constantly being targeted by enemy fire to trying to support a team that spreads apart to all corners of the map, not to mention never being appreciated for our contributions to the team, but, hey, we deal. However, I recently discovered something that kinda struck a nerve. Over the last couple days, I took the time to complete my placement matches for season 3 of competitive, and (really not trying to brag here) I kicked ass. During one match in particular, I managed to heal 67% percent of team damage taken. To put that into perspective, that means that, over the course of the match, I personally and single-handedly healed my team for two thirds of the total damage inflicted by the entire enemy team (a feat for which I wasnt even upvoted, btw, and yes I was on the board). Now, it's important to note that for the first two seasons I tried to vary my play-style, attempting to play my characters from every category to suit the situation, but for this season I stuck almost exclusively to Mercy, who is by far my best. So you can imagine my surprise when, after having performed better than ever, I achieved my lowest ranking to date. Needless to say I wasnt very happy with this, so I did some research. Turns out that the algorithms used by the ranking system are not only biased against support characters, but actually enable other classes of heroes to leech off of support characters, allowing them to achieve higher ranks thanks to their support teammates keeping them alive longer. Of course this isn't the first time that I've felt underappreciated in this game. I remember a match where one member of my team was on mic and wouldn't stop bit...sorry, "complaining"...that I wasnt healing him or using my ultimate (nevermind the fact that he was a mile away from the group and the only one dying the entire time). I also remember a fit of hysterical laughter when Blizzard updated their play of the game system because people complained about mercy getting play of the game for quad-revives too many times. As a Mercy player, I've had matches before the update where I've gotten quad-revives and kill streaks (and sometimes both at once), and I still didn't get play of the game. Also, do you know how hard it is to actually get a quad-revive? It means you have to outlive 4 of your teammates in close proximity while your ultimate is charged. It may not sound like much, but if you're on a skilled team, 4 of your teammates dying at once with you there and still alive just doesn't happen. Mercy players know the struggle.

Long story short (and WOW, did I rant, sorry), if anyone reading this plays on a team with an even halfway decent Mercy, please take the time to thank them for their hard work in the match, because if we keep getting ignored and pushed aside for camping Bastions, we just might stop healing your asses :)
Today, a serious blow has been struck, and it has been struck against ALL of us who are different. Rights and privileges that we have spent centuries fighting for are about to be set back in a serious way. Many of us have to deal with persecution on a daily basis, even here in the United States where we supposedly have protection against that persecution. The frightening thing is that we are about to lose that protection. A long, difficult battle just got longer and harder, and many of us now feel like giving up.

So now I say to all of my brothers and sisters: DO NOT GIVE UP! There are more of us who are different than there are those who are the same, AND THAT MAKES US THE SAME, MAKES US MORE POWERFUL. Take this for exactly what it is: a set-back. It may be a bad one, but it is NOT THE END. So I urge you, if you are man, woman, black, white, latino, christian, muslim, pagan, straight, gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender, questioning, or whatever else might describe you, UNITE AND TAKE A STAND! Let the world know exactly who and what you are, and OWN IT! Show everyone that, no matter how different we are, we can all come together in peace and harmony! Show them that we are ALL ONE PEOPLE!

I also urge all of my fellow vampires, werewolves, witches, and otherkin to, please, come out of the shadows and stand with our brothers and sisters in the light! Many of you may believe that it is not our time yet, and you may be right, but if we don't help now, our time may never come. Right now, we are safe, because the majority of the human race does not believe we even exist, but those who are not safe, who are in the public eye, NEED OUR HELP! So please, stand with me. STAND WITH US!

The time for change is now. For those who do not yet know, my name is Amara, and I am a bisexual vampire! Anyone reading this, please, share it, spread the message, follow the example, and show those of us who feel like giving up that the fight is not over!

NEVER GIVE UP!
Ok, I have to say that I have just about had it with Overwatch's competitive mode. I love Overwatch, and have been pretty obsessed with it since it came out, but as a Mercy mainer (is that even a word?), I'm starting to get very frustrated with it. Anyone who favors Mercy knows that we have to deal with our fair share of aggravation, from constantly being targeted by enemy fire to trying to support a team that spreads apart to all corners of the map, not to mention never being appreciated for our contributions to the team, but, hey, we deal. However, I recently discovered something that kinda struck a nerve. Over the last couple days, I took the time to complete my placement matches for season 3 of competitive, and (really not trying to brag here) I kicked ass. During one match in particular, I managed to heal 67% percent of team damage taken. To put that into perspective, that means that, over the course of the match, I personally and single-handedly healed my team for two thirds of the total damage inflicted by the entire enemy team (a feat for which I wasnt even upvoted, btw, and yes I was on the board). Now, it's important to note that for the first two seasons I tried to vary my play-style, attempting to play my characters from every category to suit the situation, but for this season I stuck almost exclusively to Mercy, who is by far my best. So you can imagine my surprise when, after having performed better than ever, I achieved my lowest ranking to date. Needless to say I wasnt very happy with this, so I did some research. Turns out that the algorithms used by the ranking system are not only biased against support characters, but actually enable other classes of heroes to leech off of support characters, allowing them to achieve higher ranks thanks to their support teammates keeping them alive longer. Of course this isn't the first time that I've felt underappreciated in this game. I remember a match where one member of my team was on mic and wouldn't stop bit...sorry, "complaining"...that I wasnt healing him or using my ultimate (nevermind the fact that he was a mile away from the group and the only one dying the entire time). I also remember a fit of hysterical laughter when Blizzard updated their play of the game system because people complained about mercy getting play of the game for quad-revives too many times. As a Mercy player, I've had matches before the update where I've gotten quad-revives and kill streaks (and sometimes both at once), and I still didn't get play of the game. Also, do you know how hard it is to actually get a quad-revive? It means you have to outlive 4 of your teammates in close proximity while your ultimate is charged. It may not sound like much, but if you're on a skilled team, 4 of your teammates dying at once with you there and still alive just doesn't happen. Mercy players know the struggle.

Long story short (and WOW, did I rant, sorry), if anyone reading this plays on a team with an even halfway decent Mercy, please take the time to thank them for their hard work in the match, because if we keep getting ignored and pushed aside for camping Bastions, we just might stop healing your asses :)

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AmaraKaiba
Amara Kaiba
United States
"This is my story. It'll go the way I want or I'll end it here." -Tidus, Final Fantasy X

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MP3 player of choice: Ipod
Shell of choice: Huh?
Wallpaper of choice: None
Skin of choice: Again, none
Favourite cartoon character: Teresa of the Faint Smile
Personal Quote: Your blood, my bliss.
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JulianOrts Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2016  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hi there! I haven't been getting very much attention to my deviation and I was wondering if you could check it out! It would be a huge help! I mean... you don't have to though it's your choice. Thx. funnyfacejokes.deviantart.com/…
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XxDreamsandRealityxX Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Happy Birthday!!!!
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AmaraKaiba Featured By Owner Apr 26, 2014
Thank you
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Welcome!
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hey i love ur art!!!!! could u donate a point or two to my donation pool?
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Tyron91 Featured By Owner Mar 7, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thx for the fav! ^^
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nekoluver15 Featured By Owner May 30, 2011
could you please have a look at my manga and possibly leave feedback? you can read it here ----> [link]

i would really appreciate it ^_^
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jakrai Featured By Owner May 30, 2011  Student Traditional Artist
You have been hugged!!!

Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)

RULES:
1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You -MUST- hug 6 other people, at least!
3- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their user page!
4- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
5- You should most definitely get started hugging right away!
6- If you get hugged back you do not need to redo this

Send This To All Your Friends, And Me If I Am 1.
If You Get 7 Back You Are Loved!
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Happy Birthday :huggle:
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